If you are going to fall in love with me, here are some of the things you should know beforehand.
I cry often. Whether it’s durning a movie, a sad song on the radio, or a regular Sunday morning. I’ll even cry when I speak of things that have hurt me, even if they no longer hurt me anymore.
I am afraid of being left. And I am afraid of not being good enough. I will tell you every single way I hate myself. And not believe a single word you say when you disagree with every reason. You can tell me countless times that you love me, but I’ll still be afraid that you’ll leave me anyway.
Do not blame yourself. I have to expect the worst because I’ve always had the worst. But when I fall in love with you. I will love each and every crack in your skin and freckle of light in your eyes. I will fall in love with the way you look while you’re sleeping. And the way your mouth curves while you say my name.
I can be difficult to love, but for me, loving you will be so easy. All I ask is that you don’t give up on me. And I’ll never give up on you. I will love you with my entire heart and soul.
And if one day you decide to leave me. I won’t blame you for leaving. And I won’t hate you or hold a grudge. I will still think highly of you. I will still remember the kind hearted person you are. And I will always still love you.
